Saber is fucking weird He just punched me out of nowhere
[ And then Dom smashed his head into Saber's face. Anyway ]
... No offense
It's the other way around Back home I'm also dating Teddie But he's my age and not from the future IDK how it's supposed to work There's just two Teddies from two different worlds And years? If I think about it too long I'll probably get a headache or something
[understatement of the century, but shauna isn’t about to say “i know he’s kind of unhinged but he went down on me so long i thought he was going to develop gills and i respect that”.]
sorry he punched you, though. that’s such a dick thing to do.
oh woah. so he’s like a past version of himself? that’s kinda trippy, actually. space-time newtonian science stuff.
He's like a comic book villain, dude I don't know what he's talking about half the time But I headbutted him back so it's whatever
Maybe There's so much stuff different about him though The one here is older but he never met me There's no way I'm smart enough to know how that works
U got a bunch of people u already knew here right? Did they remember everything the same as u?
you HEADBUTTED HIM? did you like get a concussion??
yeah me neither. i got into brown, but it was definitely not cause of my science skills.
the yellowjackets, yeah. jackie, mel, misty and nat. we all kinda came in knowing the same stuff and then i remembered some stuff at different times than mel or jackie and then we all caught up to each other.
A werewolf... The actual thing Not what we were called
Not really My moms want me to I just wanna be able to dance I was winning a couple of competitions back in Macau But they don't think that's something I can just do so I gotta go to college
Yea I mean I guess some parts are pretty cool... But it's really dangerous too I have to be locked up during the full moon
Yea that's what I thought But my moms are gonna make me go study languages or whatever Because I already know a few anyway That sounds boring as fuck though What were u gonna do in brown?
[ It takes him a while. The gravity - confusion - of someone so young being pregnant, something he hasn't really been confronted with, and he doesn't know what to say or ask, except, ]
Ur baby is back home?
[ Because of course he assumes the baby is alive, waiting for Shauna. They'd know if a mother and her child had come here together, right? She must be so determined to go home. No wonder Nat would burn this place down to help her friends leave. ]
[it's almost sweet, the assumption, and for a moment shauna lets herself wonder what if. she'd be a better person, that's for sure, if her baby was waiting for her at home, if every dream she'd had for the past year was memory instead. she almost says "yes", almost tries to create her own reality where that wintry day never happened.
but -- dom's been nice to her, he's like her, angry and hurting and wanting. he's good, though, good in a way shauna can't be anymore. she wants to tell him the truth.
so:] no. we crashed in may and by december, when i had him, we'd been starving for months. there wasn't enough to eat. so he didn't make it.
[ another reply, another reality he's never been faced with. he's at such a loss, incapable of imagining what to say or do when something like that happens to a mother who wanted a child. ]
I'm sorry
[ he wonders if those words are the same to her as they are to him. I'm sorry, over and over, from different faces and different levels of pity, every time Dom says his father is dead and he was there to witness it. It doesn't lose meaning to those who say it, but they're just that. Two words that he can't get any empathy from anymore, like a candle that burned up a long time ago. ]
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He just punched me out of nowhere
[ And then Dom smashed his head into Saber's face. Anyway ]
... No offense
It's the other way around
Back home I'm also dating Teddie
But he's my age and not from the future
IDK how it's supposed to work
There's just two Teddies from two different worlds
And years?
If I think about it too long I'll probably get a headache or something
oho found!!!
he can be kinda weird.
[understatement of the century, but shauna isn’t about to say “i know he’s kind of unhinged but he went down on me so long i thought he was going to develop gills and i respect that”.]
sorry he punched you, though.
that’s such a dick thing to do.
oh woah. so he’s like a past version of himself?
that’s kinda trippy, actually.
space-time newtonian science stuff.
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I don't know what he's talking about half the time
But I headbutted him back so it's whatever
Maybe
There's so much stuff different about him though
The one here is older but he never met me
There's no way I'm smart enough to know how that works
U got a bunch of people u already knew here right?
Did they remember everything the same as u?
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did you like
get a concussion??
yeah me neither.
i got into brown, but it was definitely not cause of my science skills.
the yellowjackets, yeah. jackie, mel, misty and nat.
we all kinda came in knowing the same stuff
and then i remembered some stuff at different times than mel or jackie
and then we all caught up to each other.
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I heal fine from all that
It comes with being a
U know
And u never got to go right
Not yet anyway
I have no clue where I'm gonna go after school's over
That's trippy...
Is Misty from ur future or was she already old
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[either shauna doesn't know dom's a werewolf or she was told and immediately forgot either way is possible.]
no i just got my acceptance letter like
the day before we left for nationals.
i hadn't even told anyone.
do you wanna do college??
lmao no
she was our age, the way i remember her
even more insane if u can believe it
the one here's from the future.
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The actual thing
Not what we were called
Not really
My moms want me to
I just wanna be able to dance
I was winning a couple of competitions back in Macau
But they don't think that's something I can just do so I gotta go to college
How was she more insane?
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you are? for real?
cool.
i mean
is it cool? it's kinda cool.
you dance? like competitively?
that's cool.
college should be like
only if you want it? i guess?
especially if you're good enough at dancing to win.
she was just
SO intense.
like no filters.
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I mean
I guess some parts are pretty cool...
But it's really dangerous too
I have to be locked up during the full moon
Yea that's what I thought
But my moms are gonna make me go study languages or whatever
Because I already know a few anyway
That sounds boring as fuck though
What were u gonna do in brown?
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that's fucked up!
and like
wolfist!!!
well u don't NEED to listen to them
i haven't listened to my mom in like
years.
besides why would you wanna study something you already know??
writing, probably.
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I basically become a killing machine
And I don't wanna hurt anyone so that's why I need to be contained
[ One of the reasons the werewolf game messed him up even more, rip. ]
I guess
I just don't know what to do to convince them
U'd get it if u met them
What do u write?
News stuff? Or stories
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but that's like
not your fault?
have you ever
y'know. actually hurt someone?
probably, yeah. parents like me, usually.
cause i talk about books and stuff.
but yeah, my mom's always at work, she doesn't care what i do.
stories, probably.
memoir.
i journal every day, so.
yeah.
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Before we went out there
Then I attacked Giles
A werewolf killed my dad and almost killed me so
I never wanted to do that to anyone
That's cool
I never thought about journaling...
Do u have favorite books and stuff?
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that wasn't your fault, dom, you know that.
it wasn't any of our faults.
but that's shitty.
i'm sorry.
i kinda started because like
who's gonna wanna listen to me?
yeah, i like the classic stuff.
pride and prejudice, little women, jane eyre.
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[ he still blames himself, fully, but saying 'I know' is usually enough to placate people, so he does. ]
I haven't really read any of those
Should I?
Also like
If u want someone to listen to u or whatever
I don't mind
[ it could be another excuse to hang out. ]
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do you still believe it?
[can't kid a kidder.]
yeah they're great.
like they're timeless for a reason.
what like
for real?
cool. thanks.
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Do u?
Or is that what we're all saying so we can like
Live in our own heads
Yea
Next time we're at silco's club
If u want
I might try to find those books in the library too
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it totally is.
but it pisses me off to have to say it.
it's NOT fine.
like, being a wolf sucked but
at least i got to be angry without anyone watching.
you wanna have like a regency book club?
pretty sure that's the nicest thing a guy's ever said to me.
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It feels like they're denying it even happened
I used to be really angry back home
I thought I was getting better here
And then everything happened
Not like I'm good at reading stuff to the end but I can try
I'll let u know if I'm not into it
[ ... ]
Why do u get angry?
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that's it, exactly.
you can say it to me. i'll even say it first.
it's not okay.
i dunno, i think you're doing okay
like you aren't an asshole.
even if you're angry.
lmao i'll read it aloud to you until you yell at me to stop.
[a beat, an inhale.]
stuff that happened out there.
in the wilderness, i mean.
did mel tell you anything?
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It's not OK
What we did was fucked up
I wish I could take it back
Thanks
I mean I punched my boyfriend when I first got here
Long story
She told me about the crash
How you guys were stuck out there for a long time
[ and if she told him more than that i can't remember pls forgive ]
U guys must have been really scared
cw: pregnancy, eventual pregnancy loss
i mean, peony's weird about it, but set doesn't seem mad.
but like
i didn't ever want to be that person.
cause he didn't remember you?
or other reasons.
[a pause, turning it around in her head, this, the most secret, private thing shauna has. this, the only thing she can give.]
yeah.
i was um
i didn't know for a little, but i was pregnant. when we crashed.
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Ur baby is back home?
[ Because of course he assumes the baby is alive, waiting for Shauna. They'd know if a mother and her child had come here together, right? She must be so determined to go home. No wonder Nat would burn this place down to help her friends leave. ]
cw: infant death, stillbirth
but -- dom's been nice to her, he's like her, angry and hurting and wanting. he's good, though, good in a way shauna can't be anymore. she wants to tell him the truth.
so:] no.
we crashed in may and by december, when i had him, we'd been starving for months. there wasn't enough to eat. so
he didn't make it.
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I'm sorry
[ he wonders if those words are the same to her as they are to him. I'm sorry, over and over, from different faces and different levels of pity, every time Dom says his father is dead and he was there to witness it. It doesn't lose meaning to those who say it, but they're just that. Two words that he can't get any empathy from anymore, like a candle that burned up a long time ago. ]
Is it where the anger comes from?
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