[ He feels cold in his chest, a shock of dread or sadness or whatever's haunting him for the nth time since they returned (a journey he doesn't remember making, a journey he wasn't alive to remember). He fucks up, Iggy forgives him, he fucks up, Iggy forgives him. ]
after the return to normalcy
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Hey...
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I guess
[ With a snow leopard and Melissa's punch on his face. ]
Are u OK
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I'm OK
Not freaking out anymore
I don't have those things on my head either
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Did that night really happen?
[ Clinging to the last thread of hope that he didn't actually do that to Iggy. A dream, a nightmare, a fabricated memory. ]
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i'm not mad.
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I'm really sorry
I don't know why I keep fucking up
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stop.
you DIED. when we come back, we're not ourselves. when i came back i wanted to drown people.
you're not fucking up.
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I'm still sorry
None of it feels real
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i almost said yes, you know.
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[ He thinks he remembers feeling it on him. Maybe that's why he got so angry when a no came out instead. ]
I'm
glad I didn't hurt u
[ ... Just wrecked his whole room instead. ]
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well I was 90% sure anyway.
do you know i missed you when you were dead?
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[ When he was one of the killers all along. ]
Everyone was really sad that u were gone
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that includes you too. 💕
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[ It helps to know not all of his friends want him out of their lives. ]
Do u need me to like
Come fix ur room or something
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If u even trust me to be there anymore
[ There's humor somewhere in there, he swears. ]
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She's a snow leopard but she's pretty docile
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Yeah sorta
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