I bet. It's really scary. Like... I DO understand. Not in the same way, but like, I would routinely get possessed back home. All of a sudden your brain is just not calling the shots and it's... [He frowns as he tries to articulate the feeling.]
[ He looks at Iggy and listens quietly. Dom can't help but compare the possession to what he goes through, except he only deals with it once a month — normally — whereas Iggy probably got possessed way more often than that. ]
What's it like not having to worry about it here?
[ He assumes that's what Iggy means by 'back home', and not including this place. ]
A relief, mostly. Sometimes I feel guilty - there ARE ghosts here - but mostly is just nice not to wake up like...
[He sighs and pushes his hair back.]
Sometimes when I was out clubbing I'd black out. And I figured, you know, I party hard. But I think sometimes I'd just get taken over, because I'd wake up in the weirdest places. Abandoned buildings. Outside care homes. Apartment hallways. The cemetery.
[ Dom goes quiet, still thinking about how he can relate to some parts and how different others are. Iggy's ordeal comes from the outside, Dom's always been from the inside. ]
Me too. One second I'm here, then I'm not. And then I know time's passed, but it also hasn't. And then I'll wake up covered in blood and — not totally covered —anyway, it's gross.
Sometimes I think I get memories of what happens. In my dreams and stuff. I could totally be making those up, though.
Good, that most be so scary. The blood especially.
I think that our subconscious remembers a lot, and it shows up in dreams. Me, I dream other people's memories most of the time. It's like ghosts leave little bits of themselves behind.
I guess I got used to it. [ A light, sad shrug. ] As long as it's mine and not someone else's.
[ There's a pause then. He hadn't even thought about how he must have had to clean up the blood of his victims during the game. It gives him a spike of anxiety. More guilt. He has to shake it off. ]
It's more like... it grows on me? It feels like my whole body's stretching and I just become it. When the moon's gone the whole wolf skin just— falls off me. That's why I always get blood on me.
[ That's the problem, isn't it? Dom keeps fucking up and people keep caring about him. Maybe he needs to accept that that's a part of him as much as the scar is. ]
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If you say so. I really wouldn't have done that if I was— if I was in control.
[ A sigh, palm running down his face. ]
I'm so fucking tired of not being in control.
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[Iggy's expression softens.]
I bet. It's really scary. Like... I DO understand. Not in the same way, but like, I would routinely get possessed back home. All of a sudden your brain is just not calling the shots and it's... [He frowns as he tries to articulate the feeling.]
It makes you wonder who YOU are.
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What's it like not having to worry about it here?
[ He assumes that's what Iggy means by 'back home', and not including this place. ]
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[He sighs and pushes his hair back.]
Sometimes when I was out clubbing I'd black out. And I figured, you know, I party hard. But I think sometimes I'd just get taken over, because I'd wake up in the weirdest places. Abandoned buildings. Outside care homes. Apartment hallways. The cemetery.
But I never knew for sure. And that bothered me.
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Me too. One second I'm here, then I'm not. And then I know time's passed, but it also hasn't. And then I'll wake up covered in blood and — not totally covered —anyway, it's gross.
Sometimes I think I get memories of what happens. In my dreams and stuff. I could totally be making those up, though.
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I think that our subconscious remembers a lot, and it shows up in dreams. Me, I dream other people's memories most of the time. It's like ghosts leave little bits of themselves behind.
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[ There's a pause then. He hadn't even thought about how he must have had to clean up the blood of his victims during the game. It gives him a spike of anxiety. More guilt. He has to shake it off. ]
Good memories?
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[Iggy smiles softly.] Sometimes, yeah.
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[ Let Iggy have nice things, ghosts. ]
It's more like... it grows on me? It feels like my whole body's stretching and I just become it. When the moon's gone the whole wolf skin just— falls off me. That's why I always get blood on me.
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Does it hurt? It sounds painful.
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[ He scratches behind his ear lightly. ]
Teddie's seen all of it. The one from back home, but this one too.
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You're not half as unlovable as you seem to think, Dom.
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Guess so.
Tell me about the dream-memories?
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